Socially Awkard!

When you read this title, some of you may be thinking "Oh, this post must be about someone Eastin knows.", but others may be thinking "So, she knows how socially awkward she acts around people." My close friends know me as the fun, crazy, dramatic Eastin Kandt. But when I first know people I'm the quiet, try to say something once in a while, introverted Eastin Kandt.

I've been feeling this so much lately with my move to San Antonio. Going to different churches, youth groups and theaters has really been difficult. It's a miracle that I got to bond so well with my schoolmates. Thank goodness, too! If it weren't for my schoolmates, I wouldn't have any good friends.

It's not like I haven't been able to warm up to people though. There was a group of people recently that I was a part of that I warmed up to them and started to be my crazy self. But this was a temporary event. After about a month, I didn't see them for about another two or three weeks. When I saw them again though, I went back to being socially awkward!

I think to be myself around people I have to see them nearly every day, or at least three days a week (that's how it is with my school pals). After a while, we grow on each other.

But this whole situation has shown me something else. I have a friend that deals with this everyday. I won't say their name to keep it private.

I'm not sure of the particulars, but they have some sort of social disorder where they can't socialize with people well. Everyone wants friends, but it is particularly hard for them. Like me, around people they know really well it's easier for them I think, but otherwise they have it pretty difficult.

If they are reading this, I want to let them know that I know how they feel. I'm dealing with the same thing. It's hard, but you're not alone. Every person feels that way at some point or another.